Negative feelings lingering in my mind ever since noon. Tried to cheer myself up but it wont barge.. So here i am, feeling so upset and everything..
i really cant this issue has been bothering me everywhere i go. Being the odd one out, or in simple terms, the "extra". Has been experiencing since secondary and so, the problem probably lies within me..
Well, i still dont know. Maybe i am really the extra. And whatever comes out from my mouth wont be trusted.. period
I just hate expectations and hopes and promises. Cause apparently i feel damn upset/angry/disappointed/irritated/ ______ (-insertnegativeemotions) when any of these ingredients is missing..
YES. I hate promises. Or rather, broken promises. When you promise something, make sure you jolly well stick to it. Dont go haywire and give all sorts of excuses. I have experienced upteem times of these stuff but i still let my guards down. In the end, what do i get? An aching heart, puffy eyes, draining mind. Is this what you want from me? If YES, then i shall fence myself up from now on.
And so, you might be wondering why im posting all these sort of nonsense. But yea. Thats it. I got enough. Couple phone?! Not like you ever going to change your snail phone. Been hinting you countless times and you took like a passing remark.. saying you try your best to change. When in acyual fact. You dont even want to change your phone..
《Get the point, dude. If you dont wish yo change it. Just admit it from the start.. and dont ever mention anything about "oh i saw this phone selling so cheap.." yea. Like you going to buy it.... -.- 》
Hi guys. (Quick update before i head for dinner)
So, basically, im currently having my 2 months vacation. But sadly. 1 month is almost up..): and whats more. Results will be out into like less than 60 hours... *super scared but i really hope i have decent grades!
Moving on... had been trying to find work to kill my spare time. But seems like the work were all too short for me. 1 or 2 days of work and lepak time came again.. but currently, im applying for this donut job which i do hope i get it! If i do, I might get to work with syahidah and kai! ^^ (double happiness)
Quick update for today (posting this cause its one of the rare times i meet up with my sec bestie!) Alright.. so, me and sya went to the donut interview and to cut it short, we had lunch and a mini shopping around the mall. Haha. For lunch, we had fish mahattan market.. apparently, we ordered 4 people's share for 3 of us. Following, we got this free set because the waitress got the order wrong! So all in all, i ate like super lots of good foodd despite being sick.. oh well. Yolo /:
Thats the end i guess! Shall dash for dinner now. (:
