This is the end of half the year.. 2013 has been a prettt fast year. Things happen. Emotions express. Life moves on. An inevitable cycle for everyone. :)
So anyways. Im glad i am there to witness many occasions. And i truly know how each and everyone have changed. Its hard to keep and everything in your mind. So why not select the best memories abd delete the rest? At least you wont have to dwell on those negative moments. (Jow,2013)
Im tired. Really tired. Emotionally/physically. Im walking aimlessly now. Cause i have no goal. I give up. I really do. I try so hard for this but nothing paid off. Everyday and every night im being neglected. It feels like im all alone battling. No help. Nothing
The world is so screwed. Okay. Actually. Its just my family. Especially my dad.
So apparently. He came home from work and he got scolded by my two sisters.. i pitied him yes i did. So i didnt want to agitate him..
I walked into the bathroom and saw him kicking my popular stuff. Then i said it was mine.. and dont kick it. And he bloody hell started scold me. Saying i put everything there. Blah blah whatever shit. And go on and on. Then i came out. Told my mum and he came out and scold me. Yea. And he argue that he didnt scold me. He was just saying. So i argued back and say i was also so saying... and there her precious daughtet told me to shut up. (When she was the cause of the whole quarrel)
Piss off man. Dont know why i get this type of treatment when i should deserve better ones. The world is so unfair. Bias people everywhere.
Seriously. Dont get you at all...
If you dont wish to talk then dont post a question. i reply and you ignore it. It may not be a big deal to you but it is to me. I dont see how our friendship has turned to this. I dont get it.
So i tried my best to talk to you on WA. Be it personal or group chat. But everytime i replied you shut up. Even though you are online.. is it hard to reply what i say? It takes u no more than 2 minutes to reply others but me? Nth. You dont bother to reply.
If you want to ruin this friendship (which alr somehow is) why not explain. At least i know what went wrong..
Sick tired crying. Yea. Thats what im feeling/doing right now on the bus. On the public bus alone..
And so whats the cause of these feelings? FALSE HOPES. how many times must i get this ? Just how many times. Always say that you will change. Wont do it again. In the end? Its the SAME. Get my hopes high crash it infront of me. Do you think its a fun game? Do you think im a toy?
Im a human. I dont like my hopes get crashed. Not ever again
